a-vHiE-thoughts
A corner of my overthinking, filled with boybands and everything in between.
Saturday, August 23, 2025
Notes From Super Show 10 Day 1
Saturday, August 16, 2025
The Stages of Fangirling
Sunday, June 01, 2025
Super Junior, Always There
But then, in 2012, I saw Heechul and Siwon on early episodes of Running Man. Their personalities caught my attention, but then it hit me.. weren’t they from Super Junior? And after that episode, a few other members popped up on Running Man as guests, and Siwon especially left a strong impression on me. I even gave their songs another chance, remembering how my friend and even my house helper were big fans. But nope… still not my cup of tea. I just couldn’t like their songs. At all.
So, at that point, my Super Junior experience was purely through variety shows. I fell for their variety-idol charm, especially Siwon (and later, Heechul).
Then came another big chapter in my life. In late 2017, things started to feel overwhelming. Running Man could no longer fulfill my weekly dose of happiness. Even binge-watching Song Joong Ki dramas couldn't excite me anymore. So, I went hunting for something new, and that's when Super Junior crashed back into my life.
I happened to stumble upon an episode of Weekly Idol and Super Junior were the guests. Siwon wasn't there, but I recognized some of the other guys. And as I watched that one episode, I fell for their chaos. They were like… how do I even explain it? Like one of those wild, unruly high school classes. Even Great Teacher Onizuka would give up on.
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No Other was on my iPod playlist in 2018. |
But around the same time, the universe seemed to have other plans. Every time I opened YouTube, it kept throwing random BTS funny clips from their variety show at me. I tried to resist, but before I knew it, I couldn’t stop watching. Within a few weeks, I had gone from curious viewer to full-on, die-hard ARMY.
Even so, during my baby ARMY phase, I still watched Super Junior’s variety shows and kept an eye out for any of their appearances. I even tuned in to their online concert during the pandemic. Their album Timeless, which came out around that time, became one of my favorites. They were still part of my life… just quietly, in the background.
And then in 2024, maybe their time finally came. They came to my country again in 2024. This time, I had to see them live. And guess what? I got the ticket. And that… changed everything. Literally everything.
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Took a pic with "Siwon". |
You know, imagine having a friend for years… and then one day, you suddenly realize you’ve been in love with them all along? That’s exactly what happened when I saw them on stage. That night, I finally realized what had been missing all this time.
And what happened after the concert was beyond my imagination. I couldn’t stop listening to their songs. Every time my bias went live on Instagram or YouTube, I had to watch. At first, I thought it was just post-concert depression. But it wasn’t. Because it keeps happening. Even now.
So yeah, Super Junior wasn’t something entirely new to me. They were always around, orbiting the edge of my life. But when life got tough, they came back. And this time, they stayed. They didn’t just entertain me. They comforted me. They became my safe space, my escape, my emotional support group wrapped in variety show madness.
Now I get it. Why BTS could waltz into my life so easily, while Super Junior stayed in the background. At first, I didn't even like them, remember? Maybe deep down, I was low-key embarrassed that I ended up liking them after years of mocking my friend and swearing I hated their songs. But now? Pfft. Forget that. I’m all in, no shame.
That said, I still refuse to be an ELF, Ever Lasting Friends. Because if I'm an ELF, that means I've been officially friend-zoned by Super Junior. And sorry, but I’m not here to be just their buddy. IYKYK ð
Thursday, May 13, 2021
Love Bangtan ð
This story is dedicated to a group of people that makes me fall in love again and again. Yes, it is Bangtan Sonyeondan or Bangtan Boys or just BTS.
So, how did it all begin?
So it was on May 2016, I was watching Running Man episode 300. A Monday ritual of mine since 2012. That episode had a bunch of guests, including this boyband called BTS. I knew that their leader, RM, had appeared on the show before with Super Junior Kyuhyun, somewhere in 2015. All I know that he was very smart, with an IQ 180. So back with Running Man episode 300. They didn't leave a big impression to me, I thought that they were just another boyband. But two things did stick in my head: the names, Jin and Jungkook. Why? Because Running already had Seokjin (the oldest member) and Jongkook (my favorite). I even joked to mysef that this boyband was just borrowing names from Running Man. A few episodes later, the Running Man members were still teasing about Seokjin was getting closer to Jin. So, for the next years, BTS was just "that boyband with familiar names." At least for me.
Then in May 2018, I saw Backstreet Boys posted a photo with BTS. They met at the American Music Awards (AMA), where BSB performed Don't Go Breaking My Heart while BTS performed Fake Love. I watched both performing that day, and honestly? BTS was mesmerizing!
Then things got messy. On Twitter, some BTS ARMY started attacking BSB fans because we also used the term ARMY for BSB fans. They said ARMY belongs to BTS fans only. EXCUSE ME? I believe some of them weren't even born when BSB debuted. I was furious. I swore I'd never become one of them. ð
https://twitter.com/backstreetboys/status/997966339141586949?s=20 |
But life had other plans. In 2019, BSB and BTS met again at the Grammys. I tuned in for BSB only. But ended up seeing BTS presented Best R&B Album. I saw them on stage. RM spoke. Hey, his english was good, I thought. I was curious at that time and started to search about them on YouTube. Yeah, my source of information is YouTube. LOL. I saw their video performances and their speech on UN. RM's speech that time was very very inspiring. I wasn't a fan but I don't know why I was really proud of him.
No matter who you are, where you're from, your skin color, your gender identity, just speak yourself. Find your name and find your voice by speaking yourself." - Kim Namjoon
A few months later, BTS were mentioned again on Running Man episode 447. This time, the members need to dance one of the BTS's song: Idol. The dance looked so hard. So I got curious and looked up for Idol on Youtube. Amd that was it. I just couldn't stop. Idol. Fire. Spring Day. Mikrokosmos. Their songs was suddenly on top my playlist.
I just couldn't stop myself watch their random clips on YouTube. Then one day YouTube recommended Dionysus. That was my official point of no return. Their performance. The energy. The artistry. I was DONE.
But still, I was in denial. I mean, how could I become a fan of group that 10 years younger than me? Well, age is important, isn't it? ð
Then, I stumbled upon an episode of Run BTS. The universe must have known exactly how to make me fall hard for them. From one episode to the next, these guys captured my heart with their chaotic personalities, genuine humor, and the way they support each other. They weren’t just idols anymore; they felt like people I wanted to root for.
My bias? LOL. Do you know how I picked Nick as my favorite? Well, it was because he seemed around my age. And that’s pretty much how I picked my BTS bias too. I looked up their birth years, and Jin, being the oldest, instantly became my bias. Yeah, just like that. ð
It might have been the right decision. The more I watched Run BTS, BTS Episodes, and also Bon Voyage, the more I fell for this boy. His laugh, the way he talks, his little quirks… I just love everything about him.
Then the pandemic came. BTS content filled my days like I was making up for all the time I hadn’t spent with them before. Suddenly, their music, videos, and shows were everywhere in my daily life, bringing comfort and joy when the world felt uncertain. I even watched their online concert. I was falling so hard. Really.
And just like how I collected BSB merch back in the day, I wanted to do the same with BTS. I started buying their albums and merch. As per now, I almost done collecting their albums. Just a few old albums left. Call me crazy, and yeah, maybe I am. (Edit in 2025. I’ve learned to contain myself now. Just buying an album, not the whole set. And only merch you can actually wear, not those ridiculous things you can’t even use.)
So yeah, And so, I entered the Magic Shop door and never returns. BTS came into my life unexpectedly. Like it was finally time for a new group to steal my heart. Maybe because they’re the first K-pop group I’ve truly stanned this hard, I became fascinated by everything. I fell in love with their stage performances. The energy, the synchronization, the passion. I adore their concepts; the team behind them must be geniuses. And the choreography? I still can’t get over how seven people can move in perfect harmony while still showing their unique styles.
But what struck me the most was how loved I felt as a fan. I’ve never experienced this before, but with BTS, I could actually feel their love in return. For the first time in all my years of fangirling, my feelings didn’t feel one-sided.
Someday, who knows, I might be waving my own amibam in a sea of purple ocean. Whether I ever get there or not, BTS already did their magic. They stole my heart, wrecked my bias list (more than once!), and made me feel seen. Not bad for a group I once thought was just another boyband. ð
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Chuun gyeoul kkeuteul jina. Dasi bomnari ol ttaekkaji. Kkot piul ttaekkaji. Geugose jom deo. Meomulleojwo. Meomulleojwo. | After the cold winter ends. Until spring comes again. Until it blooms. Stay there a little longer, stay there a little longer. [Spring Day - BTS]
Sunday, May 19, 2019
BSB is in my DNA
Yes, we're going to have the #DNAWorldTour here in Jakarta, Indonesia on Oct 26th. I got my ticket through the fan club pre-sale. And guess what, I got myself in the fan zone (DNA circle for the US/Europe show). I'm sooo excited! But after watching the first show, I'm worried if I'm going to see their back all the time and wanted to change the ticket to festival, which is in front of the stage so I could have the best view. But the more I watched the video, I think I'm gonna stick with what I have. From what I saw, fan zone/DNA Circle has the best experience ever. It has plenty of space so it's not crowded, and you can see them really close!
Tuesday, November 20, 2018
Sharing Seminar Parenting (part 3)
- Kesiapan Menjadi Orang Tua
- Keterlibatan Ayah Dalam Pengasuhan
- Tetapkan Tujuan Pengasuhan dan Sepakati
- Komunikasi yang Benar, Baik dan Menyenangkan
- Orang Tua Yang Menanamkan Nilai Agama
- Menyiapkan Masa Baligh
- Bijak Memanfaatkan Teknologi
- Dapat membina relasi
- Lebih efisien
- Lebih mampu memperhatikan hal-hal yang detail
- Lebih fokus
- Lebih cerdas
- Lebih waspada
- Penuh perhatian
- Lebih sabar
- Tidak terlalu gelisah
- Lebih penolog
- Lebih alim
Dalam pengasuhan ayah dan ibu harus menyadari pentingnya peran kedua orang tua, harus ada kesepakatan, harus ada pembagian tugas, dan ayah harus terlibat dalam pengasuhan sehari-hari.
- Orang tua pendidik utama & pertama seksualitas anak à konsekuen dan respect
- Landasan: agama
- Keluar dari tabu dan saru
- Tingkatkan pengetahuan dan keterampilan
No.
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Kegiatan
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Mentor
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Batas
Waktu
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1
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Penjelasan dampak (+) dan (-) gadget
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Ibu, ayah
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Februari
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2
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Persiapan baligh
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Ayah
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April
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3
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Pornografi, selfie, pacaran
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Ibu, mbak
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Mei
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4
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Konsekuensi menjadi orang dewasa
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Ayah, ibu
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Juni
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- Berlatih berbicara
- Gunakan istilah Al quran
- Miliki “the courage to be imperfect”. Jangan jaim!
- Harus konsisten (yang perlu dinegosiasi mana, yang tidak bisa dinegosiasi yang mana)
2. Buat aturan & kesepakatan, jangan lupa harus dikontrol, didampingi, dan dibimbing,
Sunday, November 18, 2018
Mencari Sekolah untuk J#1
Sempet nanya pas ada kulwap parenting gratisan. Kata psikolognya, mending di assessment dulu, jangan buru-buru pindah sekolah, mana tau hasilnya sama aja. Klo di-assessment dulu jadi tau kan tipe anak seperti apa, tipe skolah yang cocok untuk anak kaya apa. Tapi berhubung sama H ga boleh konsul psikolog, yaudah gw analisis sendiri aja.
Menurut hasil analisis sotoy gw sih ada dua kemungkinan. Yang pertama anak ini panasnya lama. Makin kesini sekolahnya suka telat, tiap masuk kelas pasti disambut sama temen-temennya. Nah anak ini dari bayik ga suka banget perlakuan kaya gitu. Jalan satu-satunya ya harus ke sekolah lebih awal. Kemungkinan kedua, hapalan surat dan baca iqro. Kalau semester awal dia masih semangat, hapalan surat masih lancar, iqro juga lancar. Masuk semester kedua mulai ga mau sama sekali. Sholat juga jadi ga mau. Berdoa aja sama sekali ga mau. Kalau gw baca doa atau baca surat dia langsung tutup telinga. Huks sedih deh. Nah analisis kedua ini gimana penanganannya ya?
Untuk analisis pertama, setelah dicoba masuk lebih awal memang berhasil, dia semangat banget ke sekolahnya. Tapi untuk analisis kedua belom berhasil banget sih. Kemarin sempet dicoba pake hadiah mainan. Mayan bisa untuk baca iqro. Baca doa udah mulai mau. Hapalan surat yang menyerah, dan sholat juga susah. Sampai sini gw bingung dah gimana caranya. Apa iya sekolahnya terlalu berat untuk urusan agama? Gw jadi khawatir nanti pas SD gimana, mana syarat lulus SD-nya khatam quran sampai 3x. Mungkin dia cocoknya sekolah yang santai?
Makanya, gw memutuskan untuk coba survey sekolahan lagi. Udah ada beberapa SD inceran sih. Pengennya survey sama J#1 dan H, tapi nampak ga mungkin. J#1 kan sekolah, H jauh, masa disuruh bolos? :/ Yaudh paling gw sendirian, eeh ditemenin J#2 deng :P