Notes From Super Show 10 Day 1

Jadi hari Jumat kemarin tuh nonton konser live viewing Super Show 10 di CGV. Tadinya ga bakal nonton karena mau nonton in-person. Eh ga jadi nontonnya ga dapet tiket (dan sempet kena scam. Nangys.) Ya udah, menghibur hati, nonton di cinema aja.

Eh lalu ga boleh rekam-rekam. Kan jadi ga bisa pamer 🤪 anaknya memang sombong klo udah urusan fangirl, maunya pamer di medsos. Nyahahahahhah..

Terus gw mikir, notesnya diapain? Mau gw share ke medsos kok rasanya aneh. Yaudah mending ke blog aja. Tulisan panjang harusnya di blog yakan? Gw edit dulu kemarenan karena TYPO SEMUA. 😅 Maklum aja, ngetiknya buru-buru.

Baiklah, here are my notes from Super Show 10.

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Twins. Baju putih. JEONGSU bajunyaa cubit nih yaaa! 🤏🏼 micnya lucu bener yg kaya bando gitu warna-warni. Hee merah sih yaa, Teuk putih. Sudah kuduga. Yesung biru muda, tapi anting merah menyala. Monmaap Ye, terlalu warna-warni 😌

U. Kyu muncul! Kyu micnya biru tua apa ungu ya? Heechul dengan kipas bilunyaaa, gemes!

It's You. Heechul ganteng fisan.

Black suit. Aransemennya bagus. Kirain pas gelap ganti baju item. Siwon cape banget kasian, banjir keringet.

Mamacita.

VCR. Ih keren VCRnya. 🥺

Superman. Baju hitam. Siwon Teuk bajunya transparan 🙄. Mulai ke extended stage.

Supergirl. Still in extended. Heechul 🫠🫠🫠 balik ke main stage

Haircut. Heechul idol mode bahaya banget tolong.

Say less. Ini the whole performance kayanya didesain biar Heechul ga terlalu cape ya. Dia banyak ke belakang.

Ment. Teuk matanya udah merah berkaca2. Heechul juga 🥺 Siwon keringetan banget kacian. Meanwhile Heechul bahkan makeupnya belom luncur 😅

Delight. Ke extended.

VCR. Baju Siwon basah banget! Kerja keras sekali ya kamu. Ini VCR takenya 1 hari ya sama foto ya. Bajunya sama.

I know. Casual style. Floating X stage. Kereeenn. Teuk bajunya jaring2 terus crop top. Cape ah pak. Yesung di tengah, kiri Hyuk Wookie Teuk Hae, kanan heechul, shindong, kyu, siwon. Siwon auranya horang kaya banget hey. Micnya lucu biru terus ada namanya masing-masing. Mic biasa bukan clipon.

Our Love. SARANGHEYO KIM HEECHUL. Turun ke main.

No other. Blusukaaaann.. maauuuu!

From U. Masih blusukan, rusuuuhhh

Ment. Sibuk ngomongin baju masing2. Leeteuk bajunya dihujat.. hey ahjussi! 😂 Donghae pink.. SM cenah. Mic Heechul jatoh, rusak, ga bisa diem sih 🤣 bajunya teuk terus dihujat. Lalu dia bangga SEBEL 😭🤣

In My Dream. Duduk tengah stage.

Dorothy. Berdiri. Teuk lupa nyanyi. Kenapa sih 🤣

VCR. Super animals.

Miracle. Pake kostum. Hee merak, teuk anak ayam, siwon unicorn, wook jerapah , shindong panda, hyuk kelinci, kyu pinguin, ye kucing, hae puppy.

Pajamas Party. Rusuh.

Me. Teukchul gemes di tengah.

Rokkugo. Biasa, rusuh, mencar2.

Laser show. Mendadak dugem. Pusing gw. Siwon nih pasti idenya. Ada super clap gtau lagu apa lagi. 🙂‍↔️🙂‍↕️

DNA. Pantesan versi dugem. Member masuk sambil lompat. Ciye keren. Baju item keren sih. Kaos gitu, td jadi daleman kostum jadi gampang ya. Kyu salah masuk pas nyanyi.

Rockstar.

A-Cha. Dikit doang. Terus keulang, salah ga?

VCR

Express mode. Jas item. Duh keren.

Mr. Simple. Kenapa siwon bingung, lupa koreo? 😅

Bonamana. Teuk di tengah panggung extended, terus buka jas. Panas pak?

Heechul on DRUM! Sorry sorry.

Don't don. Teuk buka kancing baju dibuka pas mau dance break. Ah mulai deh 😤

VCR (i'm stuck with you)

Marry You. Jalan-jalan di stage. Teuk gemes banget dikuncir. Heechul bajunya biru MAAUUUUU. Tapi yg Teuk modelnya keren.

Ment. Kasian yesung, digangguin pas ment. Ada yang main salon2an. Toyor aja itu yg ganggu 😂 siwon ment pake english. Gemes. Teuk sama hyuk masih gbs diem main salon2an. Heechul sok2 pake bahasa cina. Terus komplen donghae posting2 foto, eh dasar dongek, heechul lg ngomong donghae ngerekam/foto. MARAHIN AJA, CHUL! 🤣 hyuk sok2an pake jepang. 

Happiness. Masih jalan2 di stage. Ini lucu klo tiba2 H.O.T. muncul 🥺 (lah aneh 🤣)

Finale. Jalan2 di stage juga. Eunhyuk lupa nyanyi 😅😂 kyu juga. Kenapa kaliaaann 😄

Udahan. Cedih. Makin pengen nonton in person. 😭

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Gemes ga gemes ga? Norak sih gw. Maap ea. Pengalaman pertama. Eh dulu pas BTS di CGV pernah gini juga tapi ga kepikiran nulis-nulis. Padahal mayan ya jadi ada bukti memori tertulis. Karena klo cuma mengandalkan ingatan mah udah lah buyar.

Anyway, tadinya tuh gw mau mengamati pergerakan 83L. Supaya next klo mendadak dapet tiket tau harus liat kemana. Eh kameranya banyak nge-zoom banget. Mana pusing. Sebel lah gw sama kameramen. Minimal tuh ya pas mereka dancing di chorus dishoot dari jauh. Ini tetep zoom muka member. Pas mereka lanjalan pun tetep nge-zoom muka. Ya seneng sih, cuma gw pengen liat mereka keseluruhan ga muka doangan gitu lho.

Masih belajar mungkin ya kameramen SM ini. 🙄

The Stages of Fangirling

Ada aja ide bahan blog akhir-akhir ini. Awalnya gara-gara scrolling twitter, nemu tweet tentang celeb crush. Terus gw runut ulang celeb crush gw, lah kok banyak juga ya 🤣 terus jadi baca postingan gw tentang Celebrity Crush, dan di sini celeb crush gw itu yang punya cerita khayalan sebelum tidur. Jadi klo si seleb ini ga dibikinin cerita halu, berarti ga masuk kriteria celebcrush. Okay, baik. Mari kita singkirkan yang ga gw bikin cerita halu alias fanfic.

Terus, gw mikir lagi, berarti stage ngefans paling tinggi buat gw itu adalah fanfic ya? Atau apa? Lanjut mikir tahap awalnya gimana? Abis itu apa? Yasudah, mari kita telusuri bersama-sama stages of fangirling ala gw...

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1. Awareness

Di tahap ini kita baru kenal sama selebnya (ciyee kenal 😄). Mungkin liat di drama, film, music video, or any media you've watched or just saw. "Ih, siapa nih? Ganteng banget." Gitu biasanya kesan pertamanya. 

Some of celebrities in this stages mostly actor jaman 90an kaya Devon Sawa and JTT. Atau klo Korean, pasti host/bintang tamu di variety show yang gw tonton kaya Running Man, Infinite Challenge, Produce 101, Weekly Idol, Hangout With Yoo dll. Ada penasaran dikit, tapi cuma pas di situ doang, udah.

2. Curiousity

Tahap ini mulai penasaran. Grup apa nih? Main film/drama apa aja nih? Muncul di show mana aja nih? Pokoknya dicari semua karya-karyanya.. ditontonin satu-satu, didengerin satu-satu kalau sempet.

Contohnya pas gw nonton Produce 101, ada yang namanya Yohan. Gw ikutin tuh perjalanannya sampe jadi X1 (yang kemudian bubar). Terus dia main drama gw tonton. Atau dulu pas nonton Running Man, nemu Kim Woo Bin dan Kim Young Kwang, gw tontonin tuh semua drama/film mereka. Atau lagi Kwanghee di Infinite Challenge. Gemez banget ini anak, jadi lah gw cari-cari varshow-nya dia. Banyak sih di tahap ini...tapi ya, yaudah… cuma sekadar nonton, ga sampe obsess.

3. Casual Fan

Mulai deh lagu-lagunya masuk playlist. Setiap ada drama/film baru gw tontonin, mereka ke variety show gw cari juga. Apapun lah. Bahkan mungkin mulai posting-posting… tapi masih kalem, sekedar apresiasi. Belum heboh beli merch dll.

Di tahap ini, mostly ya dari variety show yang gw tonton, terutama Running Man dan Infinite Challenge. Kaya gw ngefans banget sams chemistry Yoo Jaesuk dan Haha, jadilah gw tonton varshow yang ada mereka. Klo idol, mostly generasi 2 yang bolak balik di Running Man, kaya: 2PM dan CNBlue. Generasi 1 juga ada: Sechkies. Atau kalau ngomongin aktor 90-an, ada Hideaki Takizawa dan Takuya Kimura.

4. Enthusiast Fan (Silent Supporter)

I know every schedule they have. Kapan drama baru, kapan comeback, kapan tour. Mulai follow medsosnya, masuk fandomnya. Tapi nggak ribut. Cukup diam-diam memantau. Diam-diam posting, entah di akun medsos yang mana. Kadang hanya sekedar tulisan di notes, atau bahkan cuma donlot foto-fotonya dan disimpen di hape cuma karena ga mau woro-woro aja sih.

Klo ngomongin contoh.. Nicholas Saputra and Sheila On 7, mungkin? Oh atau ini... Jonas Brother, H.O.T., and  Bigbang ada di stage ini for years. Why? Simply because they didn't pass the next stage 🤣 

5. Cocoklogi (The Filter)

Nah tahap ini mungkin ini cuma gw. Jadi sebelum gw emotionally invest, gw pasti cari tanggal lahir mereka. Their birth year, to be exact. If they pass this stage (artinya gap umurnya ga jauh-jauh amat), I’m ready to invest emotionally. Tahap ini penting, banyak yang ga lolos tahap ini.

But here’s the thing… one group is actually an anomaly: BTS. Well, just this once. The one and only time I broke my own rules. And in my defense, the oldest BTS member isn't a full decade older than me. 😌

Dan ada juga sih grup yang easily passed this stage.. they even go straight to the next two stages but I kept them hidden for years. Why? Well… just because.. (Read more about them here 😉)

6. Dedicated Fan

On this stage, I’m already emotionally attached to them. Like… I already gave my heart.  Klo ada good news, gue ikut bahagia. Klo ada yang ngata-ngatain, gue ikutan marah. Dan yang terpenting: udah nggak diem-diem lagi. Di tahap ini, seluruh sosial media gue mungkin sudah penuh dengan postingan tentang mereka. Bukan cuma sesekali atau occasionally, tapi rutin. Seluruh dunia harus tau klo gw ngefans sama mereka.

7. Delulu Fan

Almost the peak of my fangirling journey. But from here, it’s the point of no return. Most of the ones in Emotional Loyalty stage naturally drift here.

Well… welcome to my world of imagination, where everything is possible. Why? It's just been my thing since 1996. Maybe, just maybe, my teenage self never imagined that I could meet them. So yeah, I created the stories, my own world of imagination. Kebiasaan nulis fanfic malah keterusan sampai sekarang. Even after I've moved on from them, the stories stay.

8. Professional Fan (Investment Mode)

The ultimate stage. Not everyone from previous stage makes it here. And yes, I call it investment because you need money for this: buying albums/merch, attending concerts, watching their movies in the cinema, or even spending money just to take a delulu picture with them in a photo booth counts.

But, investment needs a profit, right? Well… all of that makes me happier than ever. That’s the profit, isn’t it? 😉

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So, that's it.. the Stages of Fangirling ala gw. Memang agak tydack biasa ya… but that's me, a fangirl since 1996. Dan sejak 1996 itu juga gw bikin fanfic pertama gw, didedikasikan untuk Nick and Tay. Later ya, I’ll show you my first ever fanfic, tapi yang sudah dibenerin dan diterjemahin ke English. Why? Karena versi original-nya in Bahasa Indonesia dan getek banget bahasanya, hahahaha… abege pisan lah! Malu sendiri gw bacanya.

Anyway, to end this… I know some, or even maybe most of you reading this, who didn’t know me back in school, might think I'm crazy for obsessing over some guy, or maybe say I'm 'lacking love' because I'm still fangirling at this age. Hey, listen, I've been doing this since 1996. So… am I crazy since 13 years old? Yeah, right...😏 

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It's safe to say that I'm obsessed. You should be paying rent inside my head. All the acronyms no one gets. And you don't even know my name. I'm a fan. [Fangirl - Cassidy-rae]

Super Junior, Always There

Nowadays, whenever my feelings are all over the place, I open Spotify, play a Super Junior song, and just like that, my heart calms down. Yes, you read that right. Not BTS. Not even my first love, the Backstreet Boys. But somehow, it’s Super Junior who’s become my unexpected comfort zone. Even I’m surprised. 😅 

Super Junior was nothing new to me. Honestly, it’s kinda blurry how they really came into my life because it was a weird mix of love, hate, and… a little bit of karma. 😏

Back in 2010/2011, one of my friends was so into Super Junior. Like, every weekend when we went for karaoke, she would always sing “Sorry, Sorry.” Every. Single. Time. And me? Well… I didn’t exactly hate them, but I didn’t like seeing them either. They were so different from the Western boybands I grew up with. That South Korean boygroup had too much makeup, too much hair gel… just too much everything. And their songs? Ugh. No, thank you. Me and my other friends would mock that one friend for always singing Super Junior songs during karaoke. We even joked about banning Super Junior from our karaoke sessions.

But then, in 2012, I saw Heechul and Siwon on early episodes of Running Man. Their personalities caught my attention, but then it hit me.. weren’t they from Super Junior? And after that episode, a few other members popped up on Running Man as guests, and Siwon especially left a strong impression on me. I even gave their songs another chance, remembering how my friend and even my house helper were big fans. But nope… still not my cup of tea. I just couldn’t like their songs. At all.

So, at that point, my Super Junior experience was purely through variety shows. I fell for their variety-idol charm, especially Siwon (and later, Heechul).

Running Man episode 20. (Heechul was on 11:54)

Running Man episode 22. 

Then came another big chapter in my life. In late 2017, things started to feel overwhelming. Running Man could no longer fulfill my weekly dose of happiness. Even binge-watching Song Joong Ki dramas couldn't excite me anymore. So, I went hunting for something new, and that's when Super Junior crashed back into my life.

I happened to stumble upon an episode of Weekly Idol and Super Junior were the guests. Siwon wasn't there, but I recognized some of the other guys. And as I watched that one episode, I fell for their chaos. They were like… how do I even explain it? Like one of those wild, unruly high school classes. Even Great Teacher Onizuka would give up on.

Weekly Idol episode 328. 

And so, they began to fill my days through SJ Returns, Super TV, or even just popping up as guests on random South Korean variety shows I happened to watch. They wasn't exactly my daily dose of happiness, but it was enough to lift my mood when I needed it. But still, since I didn't really like their music back in 2012, I had no interest in giving it another try. Sorry. Really.

And then came late 2018, when I started getting into BTS. The first thing I noticed? They were waaay younger than me. In fact, my own nephews are just a year younger than their youngest member. Yeah, I thought, there’s no way I’m going to stan a group that could basically call me 'aunt'. That's when I started thinking about Super Junior again. So, I gave their music another shot, and that’s when I stumbled upon No Other. I fell in love with it from the very first note. That song instantly became one of the few K-pop tracks on my iPod.

No Other was on my iPod playlist in 2018.

From there, I started listening to more of their songs. And to my surprise, they had a lot of music I actually liked. One that really stood out was Superman. I remember listening to it for the first time and instantly thinking that this song would be incredible to see performed live. Just imagining the energy on stage gave me chills. That moment made me even more curious about how powerful their performances must be. I even planned to attend their concert in my country back in mid-2019... but sadly, I couldn’t get a ticket. Well, at least not the cheapest one. Still, I was all in and ready to give them my heart. I even had a bias already. (Well, take a wild guess. LOL.)

But around the same time, the universe seemed to have other plans. Every time I opened YouTube, it kept throwing random BTS funny clips from their variety show at me. I tried to resist, but before I knew it, I couldn’t stop watching. Within a few weeks, I had gone from curious viewer to full-on, die-hard ARMY.

Even so, during my baby ARMY phase, I still watched Super Junior’s variety shows and kept an eye out for any of their appearances. I even tuned in to their online concert during the pandemic. Their album Timeless, which came out around that time, became one of my favorites. They were still part of my life… just quietly, in the background.

And then in 2024, maybe their time finally came. They came to my country again in 2024. This time, I had to see them live. And guess what? I got the ticket. And that… changed everything. Literally everything.

Took a pic with "Siwon".

You know, imagine having a friend for years… and then one day, you suddenly realize you’ve been in love with them all along? That’s exactly what happened when I saw them on stage. That night, I finally realized what had been missing all this time.

And what happened after the concert was beyond my imagination. I couldn’t stop listening to their songs. Every time my bias went live on Instagram or YouTube, I had to watch. At first, I thought it was just post-concert depression. But it wasn’t. Because it keeps happening. Even now.

So yeah, Super Junior wasn’t something entirely new to me. They were always around, orbiting the edge of my life. But when life got tough, they came back. And this time, they stayed. They didn’t just entertain me. They comforted me. They became my safe space, my escape, my emotional support group wrapped in variety show madness.

So not just BTS. Not just the Backstreet Boys. But also Super Junior, the loud, hilarious, chaotic group I never expected to love this much. Somehow, all three became home to me in their own way. Different eras, different moods… but always there when I needed them most. And maybe that’s the truth of it all: it wasn’t me chasing them. It was them that quietly, patiently, and without me even realizing, pulling me in until I couldn’t pull away.

Now I get it. Why BTS could waltz into my life so easily, while Super Junior stayed in the background. At first, I didn't even like them, remember? Maybe deep down, I was low-key embarrassed that I ended up liking them after years of mocking my friend and swearing I hated their songs. But now? Pfft. Forget that. I’m all in, no shame.

That said, I still refuse to be an ELF, Ever Lasting Friends. Because if I'm an ELF, that means I've been officially friend-zoned by Super Junior. And sorry, but I’m not here to be just their buddy. IYKYK 😏

Anyway, let's save the talk about my bias for the next post. This one's already way longer than I intended. Guess I got a bit carried away. Too much drama, I know. Just like Super Junior themselves. LOL.

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Neo gateun saram ddo eobseo. Juwireul dulreobwado geujeo geureohdeon geol. Eodiseo chatni neogatchi joheun saram. Neogatchi joheun saram. Neogatchi joheun maeum. Neogatchi joheun seonmul. | There is no one else like you. Even if I look around, it's just like that. Where do I find a good person like you? A good person like you. A good heart like you. A good gift like you. [No Other - Super Junior]